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bedroom cassette demos ep

by the trivial group

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previous release (inri076):
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/all-you-need

this writeup has been corrupted by the vandal and will need to be rewritten.

discard until later.

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sequence should be:

01. a section
02. completed version of this demo
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03-xx. remixes of this demo

so, a 17 minute ep + 5 or 6 bonus tracks.

rough notes, clean this up...

this is a rough digital transfer of the last old cassette i have, which i can now put away, along with this old portastudio i recorded it on

i vaguely recall recording this in sarah's apartment as a starting point one night when she was out, and it's really the only way to make sense of it existing at all. i ended up living in sarah's space (which she shared with a friend named heather) for a few weeks because my retarded step-mother tossed me out of the house for correctly calling her delusional - because she was - and refusing to apologize - because it was true. you can claim that was foolish, but where do i get by denying the actual truth? she made an absurd accusation that can only be described by her deluding herself about reality. apologizing for pointing that out would be equivalent to also denying reality and being equally delusional. like, it wasn't an insult, it was a statement of fact! so, if i were to apologize for stating the truth, it would be equivalent to accepting her delusions as true, which would be a denial of reality, and for what? i can't sacrifice truth like that. i can't walk down this dystopic path. so, if you want to accuse me of foolishness, let's at least be accurate about it - the foolishness is actually rooted in an inability to interface with nonsense. this wasn't about my ego, it was about refusing to walk into a dystopia and refusing to separate myself from reality in the process. i'd read too much orwell, i just couldn't handle it. and i knew that the next step would be even worse - that accepting one nonsense as truth would merely lay a basis for accepting more nonsense as truth. it was a shitty outcome, no doubt, but i had to stick to the facts, here - i had to hold to my principles.

truth > family. you have to protect your brain, you have to protect your sanity, or you'll end up as fucked up as everybody else, in the end.

so, i ended up without anywhere to sleep - something i'd never dealt with before (except on the trip to bc i'd just come back from) and wasn't actually taking seriously. in addition to learning that my stepmother was retarded, i learned a little bit about how to fend for myself. but, in the end, i decided i'd rather stay with sarah for a bit, anyways.

but, i lost access to my computer and recording interface...

as such, i called up my old friend greg (same greg.), who had been using the tascam. i mean, i didn't need it - i had the soundblaster live interface. but, now i did. proto-anarchist jessica knew how to distribute property efficiently. the only reasonable timeframe when i would have made this recording is therefore when i was staying with sarah, after i picked up the item from greg (who got a little bit annoyed about it) - which would have been the fall of 2003.

in the end, i just forgot about this recording, and am kind of wondering where the tape with "like divine amoebas" went, as i have more developed memories around recording that track than this one. i mean, this doesn't actually go anywhere just quite yet, even if the dual guitars are kind of harmonically interesting as intertwined sections. that said, this is my next major recording project, as well, and it will form the missing piece of my 8th record (a massive 2xlp set of lengthy pieces, all four of them labeled as symphonies) when it's done.

i will probably do something further with this exact recording, though, as i finally work out the lost symphony. as it is, as rough and unfinished as it is, it's easy enough to extrapolate my mindset at the time, in this kind of dour dirge through this dissonant harmonic cycle of down strokes.

if this is from late 2003 as it must be then it is by far the earliest recording of it that i have. i tried to record it in late 2004 and over 2005, but got distracted and ended up writing xenophanes, instead. so, this comes in last in the sequence of four intertwined symphonic works, but it was actually meant to be the third piece, before xenophanes interjected itself in between. and, that's why it got lost - i pivoted out of the trivial group before i finished it, as i so often did back then. and so often do still now....

are there further demos? well, i can't answer that question thoroughly until i'm sure what happened to the other tape. i digitized it in early 2004, so i haven't lost anything in being unable to locate it. but, i'm sort of sure that it was actually around, too.

for now, these are the only two tracks i have from that brief phase, both demoes of songs that would be completed later and elsewhere, and this is the document i can construct.

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initially, the only thing i transferred was a section that became "like divine amoebas", because i was using it, directly. i seem to have lost that tape, but i have found a second tape with an early version of the lost symphony and added it to the ep, as of early 2021. i do not appear to have any further tapes, meaning some recordings have unfortunately been lost.

i want to finish this release by completing the version of the track, as i left it. the lost symphony will be finished as a full recording on inri078, with many remixes and alternate interpretations. this release needs to finish the thoughts that were left undocumented, in strict relation to this truncated 11 minute version of the composition. expect a handful of snapshots. that demo will then form the basis of the complete recording, which will be expanded upon in a similar manner as the other trivial group symphonies (reflections, interplanetary isomorphism,. xenophanes).

the second part of the first section should be worked into the lost symphony.


written & recorded in 2003. digitized over 2019-2021. completed in early 2022. inri077. as always, please use headphones.

disc 1:
01. quantum psychosis (uncut instrumental mix)
02. laced in remorse
03. laced in remorse (2003 direct from tape mix)
04. laced in remorse (2003 direct from tape mix) (split stereo)
05. laced in remorse (corrected direct from tape mix)
06. laced in remorse (instrumental tape tempo)
07. laced in remorse (tape tempo)

disc 2:
08. laced in remorse (direct from tape) (tempo correction)
09. laced in remorse (direct from tape) (split stereo) (tempo correction)
10. laced in remorse (corrected direct from tape mix) (tempo correction)
11. laced in remorse (instrumental)

next release (inri078):
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-lost-symphony

credits

released November 1, 2003

j - electric & acoustic guitars, effects, production

there are no synthesizers on this recording.

the acoustic guitar played on this recording belonged to heather.

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jessica murray Windsor, Ontario

this is the archive for the artist formerly known as jason parent and now known as jessica murray.

the music here has shifted dramatically over many years, from roots in punk/grunge through to experimental synth pop and into a type of kitchen sink post-rock with heavy electronics. the only consistency throughout is a lack of consistency, guitars and an impressionist aesthetic. "blender rock".
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